You know what I hate?
Vague blog posts.
I don't blame you for writing them though. They create the intriguing and potentially poetic enviroment I assume you are going for.
Anyway, ultimately your undecipherable words make you less vulnerable to the outside world, which is understandable.
You couldn't just say, "Jim, you really made me feel terrible the other day when you walked right past me in the hallway hand in hand with Louise. Did you forget that we made out yesterday?"
Instead you, (or is this about me?) spend a little too much time editing a sentence that has to be read over and over to even be understood.
I stood there last week, in an interview that would determine a great amount of my future, my knees slightly shaking and the skin of my neck heating, and I heard myself talking. I answered the questions confidently and presented with passion. But it was almost as if I was somewhere else. Somewhere so deep inside of me. Beneath it all, I was scared out of my mind, and I was trying desperately to remind myself why i had put myself in this vulnerable position.Being vulnerable? It sucks. Bad.
It also causes growth. The kind that only comes from a little heat, and a little pressure.
Write something real, and post it. I think more people might appreciate that than myself. Don't take my word for it though. Apply to the job you have always wanted, and interview. Make friends with someone that has always intrigued you, with no hidden intention of romance. It will do you good-- i promise.
"and the hannah that smashes plates and climbs into insanely large treehouses and swings higher than she ever has before is become gradually more like the hannah that looks at the stars and lays on the floor to listen to music in the dark and that hannah is becoming gradually more like the hannah that loves so desperately that all she can do is smile and that hannah is becoming gradually more like the hannah who makes friends out of strangers and can sometimes think of witty things to say."
Hannah, You GET life!
p.s. if you really do write something real real real and vulnerable will you please tag me in it? I want to read it. very much.